Love

Due to recent developments in my personal life I have been giving a lot of thought about who is right for me. Who does God want me to be with? Do people really change for the better? How do you know who you are supposed to be with? A lot of people tell me you just are supposed to know. But I thought I knew I was supposed to be with most of the men I have had significant relationships with, or I wouldn’t have been with them at. There was a man long time ago that I felt something I have never felt this day with anyone else. The things they describe in love songs, I felt like I was dizzy and floating when we kissed. Our relationship was not perfect though. We both made mistakes and I was young. Yet I now have an opportunity to choose this man as the man to be with for the rest of my life. Now if I told you about he most will tell me this is a bad idea, and I am not one to make horribly rash decisions.  I just feel so sure. Should I trust my brain or my heart? But even part of my brain is telling me yes. It’s definitely a risk like any relationship is. He has never intentionally hurt me. What I would tell someone in this situation is if it makes you truly happy go for it. If he shows true signs of change such as going to therapy to get help and truly working on the relationship with you. So I guess I will take my own advice. Are there any deciding factors in who you are supposed to be with? It seems like no one ever picks someone who is logically good for them. Why can’t we ever fall for the one who is good for us? Is that a issue with ourselves or is love supposed to be real and not easy. I am going to admit something if this man is the person I decide to be with I’m scared shitless. The most vulnerable trusting thing you can do is give your whole life to someone else.